I’m putting this here in my Blog folder because I’m not sure whether there’s an
ImageFap restriction on posting product information and website addresses
publicly.
Someone (Trans) here on Image Fap mentioned plant-based hormone regulators from
Transformations Labs ( located in Lewisville, NC 27023 ), so I (quickly) looked
them up and spent a bit of time exploring their products. Their website is a
bit ‘clunky’ to me, not very clearly organized contents, yet after a while I
found my way around.
I read and saved information about various products which I will summarize here
for anyone who is interested.
First I’ll acknowledge that I’m not TranSexual and don’t intend to be - not at
age 72. If someone had sissified me at age 11-12 I think I could have Loved it,
including if they knew well enough how to get me put me on homones safely,
especially secretly - nothing like Secrets for/with kid, if they’re Kept
secrets.
I began masturbating at 11 (when I had just a few pubic hairs starting) - and having
Orgams - but not ejaculations - for a while, then gradually a drop or two and
increasing more over a period of about 6 to 9 months.
So here I am, an Olde Pharte, eagerly playing around with all my wonderful
kinky fetishes, most primarily “playing penises” which is The primary sexual
circumstance that I feel and desire, including being primarily Submissive and Used
for the pleasure of Others - and deeply craving Feminzing.
I have recently placed and received an order for several Transformational Labs
products to alter my natural hormone levels, to lower my body’s testosterone production
and to raise my body’s estrogen production. I really long to see how my body
and my emotions feel to me, with a more suitable bearing for a cock-sucking
sissy-faggot, primarily homosexual with secondary bisexuality.
Transformations Labs’ About Us:
“As the leaders in all natural,
organic hormone manipulators, Transformations Labs is here to help you find
your way. We can help with smooth, gradual, comfortable transformations. Be
new, be bold, be different, be ALIVE - TransformationsLabs.com!”
My first item is “Testosterone Blocker and Metabolizer”, which contains: Saw
Palmetto, Don Quai and Black Cohosh.
My third item is “Dangerous
Curves *MTF Synergist” (*Male To Female), which contains: Vites Agnus Castus
Berry, Pueraria Thomsonii Root and Piperine from Piper Nigrum L.
This is made specifically to work with and enhance the performance of the “Testosterone
Blocker and Metabolizer” + “Estrogen Booster”, with an enzymatic
inhibitor that inhibits P-Glycoprotein, the substance that naturally eliminates
other supplements from your body - to utilize those products longer and more
efficiently with more bio-availability of each daily dosage, and at a higher
absorption rate.
“AM Slim” which contains: Citrus Aurantium, Vitamin B6, Pure Caffeine and White
Willow Bark - and – “PM Slim” which contains: Cayenne Pepper, Green Tea, Asian
Mustard Powder, Piperine, Cumin, Ginger, Turmeric, Curcumin and Cinnamon.
Transformation Labs has more products, like: “Anti-Aphrodisiac”, “Breast
Enhancing Serum”, and “V-351” ...
T.L.’s Venus 351 is an advanced feminizing formula which interacts with and
complements the other supplements exceptionally well. It has been designed to
"pick up" where the others have left off and is created to allow our physiology to naturally produce more appealing feminine traits and help give us
our feminine qualities we are seeking. “If your goal is a curvier, more
appealing bust line with thicker, fuller hips, a more delicate vocal range,
larger cup size, less muscular build with thinner, lighter body hair; look no
further.”
They are available as single items or multi-packs
Combined products are availble in multi-packs, for instance - my order of the Testosterone
Blocker and Metabolizer, Estrogen Booster, and Dangerous Curves are in a
Multi-Pack of 3.
Those three, plus ‘V-351’ are available in a multi-pack of 4.
Most of these products are also
prepared in liquid form, which is sublingually absorbed under-tongue, where
they are absorbed more quickly than through the digestive tract.
I hope that any of you other Queers who may be interested will find some of
Your/Our “needs” met without potentially risky pharmaceuticals and artificially
synthecised hormones.
Love, Robin
Transformations Labs’ Disclaimer:
“These
statements have not been evaluated by the Food and Drug Administration. This
product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease.”
I am very pleased to share with everyone that in regrad to my previous description - getting back onto antidepressant Paxil (Paroxetine 20 mg tablet), I have been back on it since October 28th. My quest to be Orgasm Deprived is Entirely Successful.
Since I have been unsuccessful in finding people to Sexually Dominate me - for Their Pleasure - regardless of my own - actually Instead Of My Own - I am now succeeding in utterly Depriving Myself of the ability to reach Any Sexual Climax, to be able to achieve Orgasm or Ejaculation.
I do miss the ejaculation however, because I miss eating my Cum.
An amazingly exciting Benefit is that my arousal sensitivity is significantly increased. It only takes a mere thought - or even a very light Touch on my crotch to feel exciited - Especially knowing there is no possibility of having ANY Sxual Climax.
The first time I attempted to masurbate - and could not - I felt rather hurt, diappointed, DEPRIVED. So then I gladly accepted and willingly & eagerly Championed my Self-Pleasure REJECTION.
When I see pictures that I like, I get a surge of feeing from my throat all the way to my crotch to a point that it may even make my body Tremble and Shake ... and I simply Love feeling that way - Shaking with Lust.
When I use my all time Favorite Sex Toy, my Elctro-Simulation Ureathral "sound" it is very intense, more than ever before and I simply Love It, especailly since that's "as good as it gets" ... constant stimulation without any possibility of Climax = No Ograsms.
When I first began the Paxil treatment in the mid 1990s and experienced orgasm prevention all those years ago - I sort of liked it, yet I was also Not accessing Interenet OR Pornography (for a few years, until 1998). So I had no idea about Domination and Submission - nor any introduction to such immence sexual possiblity, particularly as a Beta Faggot Boi and so Very suitable to my mental, emotional. and sexual levels of Disability, Depravity, and Deviance.
Thus I am SO pleased with finding Image Fap - my Greatest opportunity in my life - to discover, enjoy, and open up myself to getting really, really, Dirty ... Lustful into sheer Perversity and Deviance.
So, to the depth of my Heart and of my sincere Queer-ness, I thank all of you for your contributions.
I really AM an Asexual, Queer, Cock-Sucking Sissy-Faggot Wanna-BE.
Thank you all for encourging my success.
And always remember, there Must Be some really nice people that I can meet who will FUCK Me, especially more than one and more than one at one time - my best most favorite Need.
VIDEO: You Will Suck Cock Encouragement Binaural Beats Hypno Trance
A while back I found a quite lovely "Binaural Beats" (brainwave entrainment) Hypno Trance video which I really like. It's about 9 minutes long with only some few captions which change along with and enhance the dialog.
I really like using it a Lot, Alas that I do not commonly remember to use it more frequently (at least once every day).
The full title is as posted in the "Title" box preceeding this Blog statement, and the website address are here:
"You Will Suck Cock Encouragement Binaural Beats Hypno Trance"
As I explore my Beta Boi Submissive
self-ness, I am appreciating that it feels very good to me consider having
Others Dominate my sexual experiences and behavior, especially more toward
Their Pleasure rather than or even Instead of Mine.
I feel quite attracted toward being
the Provider of a Physical Body (mouth, ass, etc.) in which for others to
Relieve Themselves, even sort of like a Toilet.
I like the term "Flesh Bag":
a Relief receptacle into which others may insert themselves, merely to exist as
a body for Their stimulation, Their arousals, Their ejaculations, Their
orgasms, in an everyday manner.
I feel rather deeply attracted to that
- a site for other people's ORGASMS to occur, like in my Mouth, in my Throat,
in my Anus and in my Rectum, again - a place in which for people to Relive
themelves.
So now I'm remembering also (long ago)
having a Counselor suggest that I undergo antidepressant treatment ... and so a
Physician's Assistant prescribed some of them and (supposedly) monitored how I
respond to them.
Prozac was a Disaster - actually made
me Manic. Amitriptylinewas mediocre,
others whose names I do not even remember were of little or no use.
One, however stood out to me in very
unexpected ways, that was Paxil. Often antidepressants have sex arousal or
arousal suppression effects. In my case Paxil was inbetween there for me. All I
had to do was Think of sex, Think of my body, Think of my penis, and I became
quickly aroused, but WITHOUT erections or ORGASM .
Oh I could go through the motions, yet
I could Not achieve either any Climax, nor an Orgasm, nor an Ejaculation ...
and I was quite intrigued by that,
because my most common sexual climax experience was also strongly dominated by
Premature Ejaculation and little (if any) actully fulfilling Orgasm.
So this Suppression of Climax from
Paxil had seemed a likely way for me to Successfully Fuck someone's Vagina, for
long enough for them - to even notice -
that I was inside there (toward which I was otherwise basically Useless).
As previously mentioned a serious
element of my climax-orgasm experience was premature ejaculation, ejaculation
without orgasm or having a most tiny orgasm that really did not reach any
height - to make it hardly even worth Bothering to have sex.
For instance Once (only, ever) when at
age 30, I actually lived with (only) one woman, and for 8 months, during which
she Did actually have One orgasm, and oddly enough on the very next night I
actually did have One (real) orgasm too.
That has (mostly) been the extent of
my "sex life" except for some brief moments of homosexual opportunity
(sadly unrecognized and even More sadly not pursued - due to that child hood
{programmed} stigma against doing "dirty" things, and gee wiz do I
ever want to be a Dirty Boi).
So in (hopeful) pursuit of such
attractions toward Submissive sexuality, including multiple both Submissive and
Dominant, participants, including via possible: Sissification, Feminzation,
mixed racial Dominance, Humiliation, Etc., I am aware that since it's not My
considered craving for Climax & Orgasm that is of primary interest to me,
to an extent going back on Paxil could actually be rather intriguing and
possibly encouraging my strong submissively Non-Orgasm position.
Well, long story short, since I want
to experiment with Feeling various such possibilities, I have an upcoming
Doctor appointment and I am going to specifically Request for a prescription
renewal ...
Goodness, if only someone had Fondled
my early sexual development with an Estrogen recommendation (and I mean very
early) ... Wow, I might long ago have been able to enjoy being the Subject of
many such lovely sissy-faggot pictures that are now so Wonderfully provided
Here on ImageFap.
So, I may soon be updating this post
with some Paxil Treatment reports.
Hi, I'm really enjoying the encoragement and awakening I'm enjoying here on ImageFap.
So one brief thing I want to mention here (to go on record) is that I CRAVE to have my testicles Squeezed, Hard. I do it to myself and when relaxed I seem to have No Limit. So I need to have someone else assist me with this. Perhaps also when we can do it to and with each other, but my main urge is to have it Done To Me, so I can be relaxed and not having to make that move myself (same with anal fingering).
Thank you all for observing, sharing, and appreciating my inner quest toward Sexual Perversion and Deviance because quite frankly, it feels completely Natural and possibly even Normal to me.
Love, Robin
Schizoid Type, Oral Type, Masochistic Type, from Sexuality by Walter Last
I originally posted this on 2020-01-12, yet during editing I accidently deleted it.
willifag (no longer an ImageFap member) commented kindly on it - sorry he has left here, he seemed to be someone I might have cherished being a close personal and sexual friend
Schizoid Type, Oral Type, &
Masochistic Type - from "Sexuality" by Walter
Last
(1) The schizoid type experienced emotional trauma already around birth and,
therefore, did not fully connect with the body. When things become difficult,
schizoids just withdraw from reality and live in fantasy. The resulting lack of
body feeling and identification with the 'self' also leads to confused sexual
identification, and schizoids easily become homosexual or prostitutes. Many
passive lesbians are schizoid as they crave for warmth and human comfort like
deprived children. The orgastic potency is usually very low, that is the
ability to reach a full orgasm.
(2) The oral type is widespread because of the
general abandonment of breastfeeding in our society. The baby felt abandoned
and sex is sought mainly for closeness and contact, similar to the schizoid
type. The breast is worshipped and oral sex enjoyed. Sexual relationships as
well as sexual functions remain immature. Also anal sex is related to the oral
phase. Sensuality, superficial feelings that make us feel good, are used as a
substitute for orgastic sexuality, but cannot achieve a deep emotional energy
release.
(3) The masochistic type evolved from
domineering parents who crushed the child's creativity and self-respect. This
lack of self-worth is expressed in a sexual relationship as a need to be
humiliated. Sexual excitement can be gained from inflicted pain. The
masochistic male may have a problem achieving ejaculation.
Love, Robin
My Experience:
Over my early Decades, as I was
finding expressions that boys who become Queers/Fags have frequently grown up
(if they/we can call it that) in broken familes, particularly without their
Fathers, and thus become attracted to same sex relationships to compensate for
"Daddy".
While I realize that the above
descriptions are more clinical type expressions, I was delighted to find them, since in my case they fairly accurately describe my own circumstances and my
own personal inclinations. For my part I VALUE these descriptions - as well as
their potential - and I mean toward my own lusts and deviant sexual cravings.
I actually take delight from
understanding myself in these particular ways - they just seem So fitting to
me - especially feeling to be a perverse and sexually deviant person. I cannot even Imagine being Normal - Whatever That Is.
I appreciate anyone else's reflections
on my part in these - frankly, I crave to be dominated and even molested -
which only happened to me a few (far too) brief times in my childhood and as an
underage teenager.
If I could turn back the calender, I
might better realize & reconsider many opportunities that I passed up being an active homosexual and bisexual, Queer-Sexual, merely because I didn't understand what Gifts were being offered me.
I AM a Queer, Cock-Sucking Sissy-Faggot Wanna-Be - which I Crave and Lust toward transforming into my sexually active Sodomist self.
With the natural world on the brink of demise largely
because of overpopulation, unrestrained homosexuality, as one of a variety of
ethical and democratic measures available to us today, offers perhaps the most
natural option to be enjoined. What other options are as attractive? We don’t
want to die young. We don’t want to face illness or catastrophe. Many
individuals and societies refuse abortion and birth control. Few would condone
or submit willingly to the kind of international law imposing a one-child
policy like that exercised by China on all nations. And we hardly need to be
reminded of the history of racist, eugenicist, and militarist agendas for
imposing growth control on unwilling and unknowing populations. So why
shouldn’t homosexuality be seen as providing a viable option to
overpopulation—to the point that the world’s nations come to encourage its
practice and esteem its benefits? It is, after all, the most harmonious way to
control the population—considering all that’s required is that we love and
support our gay sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, parents, friends, lovers,
and selves.
G. Roger Denson
Full article here: https://www.huffpost.com/entry/is-homosexuality-populati_b_784449
My Small Penis - enjoying other peoples small penises
My
Small Penis - Story
My
penis is small - not quite tiny.
Fully erect I'm 5 inches long and 1-1/4 inches thick.
Fully limp, it's sometimes under one inch in length.
This simplifies it somewhat ... if my pubic hair is not cut, it's actually
difficult to reach through my pants zipper, and through my underpants opening
to pull my penis out to pee - because the hair is longer than my penis. So I
like to cut my pubic hair (which is Fun anyway, of course).
For a pretty long time, surfing Internet pornography, I hardly ever found any
significant sources of and about small penises.
When I first began using ImageFap, I was absolutely delighted to find LOTS of
attention with small penises - what a delight ... especially considering the
urge to share myself with others, both singly, in groups and maybe even publicly.
So now it's SO wonderful to find others with like urges, cravings, compulsions,
and especially our fetishes - including into relams of perversion and even
longings for deviant behavior.
I was molested at age 17 by an older (early 20s) guy - first time I ever got
drunk (more on that in another Blog).
This was the guy who bought the beer for me to drink. He took me back to his
(mother's) apartment - mom was at work.
His penis was about the same as mine - he even said "Nice piece of
meat" to me when he opened my pants, pulled out my penis, began playing
with it, then sucked me.
My cravings now (as an older man) include some chance of meeting other men and
boys to have sex with ... most especially including being a member of a group
of us small penis losers ... like a village of twinky dinky Queers - to hang out
with, have sex with, be together as a community, friends and fellow perverts.
Most important of all we could be under the scruitiny of a (parallel) group of
Alpha dominant gay/bi men and women to "Service" us small penis Beta
fag boys basically meaning Fucking us (of course), and especially some
occasional straight newcomers we can bring into the fold (welcome & embrace) with the rest of us Teeny-Peeny
Queers.
On that "Queers" account I'm so pleased that I am neither a
heterosexual nor an othewise sexually "Normal" hu-man.I think it would be SO boring to be Normal
(except to actually *Have* a sex life with other people).
I feel quite privileged to be a small penis queer - particularly since my
concluding sexuality statement about myself IS:
I Am an asexual Queer, cock-sucking sissy faggot wanna-be, with (eager) fetish
attractions leaning toward various perverse & deviant behaviors.
My profile name, Daddies_Boy is mainly a base inclination - to
suck men and to be fucked by men: They, the Dominant alpha males; Me,
the Submissive beta sissy fag boy.
Oh a broader scale - and important to my prominently perverse and
sexually deviant self, here is my basic Crave:
I am a Queer, cock-sucking sissy-faggot wanna-be, and would like to experience Dominant bi-sexual and/or shemale/tranny couples to be their Submissive
sissy-faggot boy (gurl).
I would like to try out being humiliated about my small penis - especially by Queer women.
I would like to live in a community of such people, sort of a Village of Queers - with others like myself, Submissive beta playmates and our alpha Doms overseeing, directing and Servicing us.
My fetish urges include group sex,docking, sounding, bondage, throating, electro-stim, waxing, mud and manure baths, quicksand plunges, figging, formicophilia, plant irritants like stinging nettles, pissing and golden showers including full body application, oral & anal insertion - and including dietary & juice/water fasts to purge & cleanse the digestive-excretive-urinary tracts for facillitation of penetration and fluid exchange activity.
I also feel a craving to be a public nudism voyeur and to share videos and pictures of my activities.
My true sexual self - my reasons for using ImageFap - and where I need to go from here, originally Messaged to footsteps_ch
Messenging "footsteps_ch" on ImageFap
First of all I must openly state - I'm not just here (at Image
Fap) just to be finding stimulation for masturbation. I rarely masturbate to
the (wonderful) many attractions and sexual practices of others. I'm here to
mirror my self, to explore, to find, and to hopefully learn sexual behavioral
practices that develop and enhance my real inner sexuality.
SO, "footsteps_ch" replied to one of my pictures of my
little penis in my own gallery > "well, that is really a little cock of
a little boy".
Yes it really is "a little cock of a little boy".
Do you like it?
I'd love to be my little boy self again.
When I was a little boy, and when I was a teenager, and when I was
in my early 20s, I had several chances to enrich my various Homosexual
attractions - and offerings from other people to particpate homosexually with
them, and more eventually my Bisexual attractions too - yet I did not follow my
instincts.
Although I had some strong hints, I also failed to explore my
inclination to wonder about and prefer that I would have liked to be a little
girl instead of a little boy, to be a pubescent girl instead of a pubescent
boy, to be a young woman instead of a young man. I specifically dreamt of and fantacized
about this in my late teen-age years... and at various other times in my life,
eventually (now) solidly fixed into my being.
It seems that I was unable to follow my true nature due to living
in a world of family disaster - and that I did not follow repeated urges to
develop my inclinations toward being in close relations with other little boys,
then with other teenage guys, then with other young men.
I realize now that all of these conditions contribute quite
vividly to my attractions of being developed as a sissy and of being dominated
by the growing evolution of femdom management - of so many of us lost and wandering
(pathetic) beta males.
I do, now, understand and confirm that my true nature was toward
being a girl, being a woman, AND having BOTH (alpha) women and men manage my
needs effectively by Domination - by presenting my Submissive self to their
care and their guidance - for their enrichment of my character and of my true sexual
development and behavior.
It's an obvious fact that, I prefer a mix of sexual influences,
that as a mainline priority I'm more attracted to penises than I am attracted
to vaginas.
I really, really wish that I had a vagina instead of a penis,
because then I would have THREE holes for men to put their penises in: into my
Mouth and into my Anus AND into my Vagina - and that includes more than one at
a time and all at one time, of course.
Since I realize now how I have not managed my sexuality according
to my true nature, I have also come to be attracted to a whole range of
additional attractions and fetishes, toward deeper sexual perversion and toward
deviant sexual behavior. I actually consider it a privilege and a benefit to be
sort of twisted and somewhat bizarre about it - even to make it public - to
champion myself as the asexual Queer, cock-sucking wanna-be, that I am.
I mentioned in another Message to you recently how much I enjoy
and identify with those three Favorites of your's: "My Early Years",
"Raised To Be A Sissy" and "Happy Days" ... to which you
responded:
"I am not surprised that you like those 3 favorites because
that's how a sissy should be raised."
"Your mom should have done it this way."
"It is also not a surprise to me that you have favorites of
young little cocks and cunts."
"Of course you would like them even much younger."
... and that many of my Favorites pictures are of young penises and young
vaginas - which is correct.
I especially like pictures of men and boys with small penises - like mine.
I especially like pictures of slender and skinny and flat-chested girls and
women.
So there's a cross-over connection point for me there - a rather hazy
distinction between boys and girls - including that I very much like shemales. I'm
was actually just amazed and delighted to become acquainted with shemales and
trannies - and then onward with sissy men and sissy boys - and that
Many people in our world live in this special mixture of sexuality.
The part of your statement, "you would like them even much younger"
is correct.
Since all of my source sexual experience was when I was a little boy, that is
what I relate to the most ... experiences of nudity with boy childrem and girl children
when I was 5 to 17 years old - those are my Favorite body-awareness times - and
I find it perfectly natural, healthy and "normal" to be so-oriented.
As long as no one is violating our protective laws, or health & safety, it's
not threatening or traumatizing or unsafe for anyone involved, as long as no
one feels intruded upon or frightened, I feel pretty all-around "human"
about it.
After all, we all have human bodies - we all pretty much know what human bodies
look like and feel like. We interact with each others' bodies. We enjoy,
appreciate, marvel at and commit ourselves to being intiately involved with our
bodies and with each other's bodies - children included. That's how we learn it
too, by the examples that are set for us by our families and our friends.
So it goes.
I like naked children in Family Nudism pictures. It's so perfectly natural that
children are not instinctively stigmatized against nudity - not until we are
taught that. It's safer and more socially respectful to hide our bodies, yet my
underlying innocense and natural inclination is to both appreciate and accept
seeing naked children. Anyone who follows "family nudism" online will
quickly see that many people commonly go to nudist/nudism camps, beaches and vacation
places, where everyone is naked and participating in open, regular social
gatherings without clothing, which is non-threatening and widely acceptable -
just like native cultures.
Frankly, I would very much rather live in or near such communities. I would
like to actully live in such a "village" so to speak ... a village of
Queers.
Because I AM a - Queer, cock-sucking sissy-faggot wanna-be. And, I eagerly
and specially desire to find perhaps, a bisexual Dominant couple, to be their Submissive
sissy-boy child. Especially when there is opportunity to associate with others
- even publicly - to share and openly demonstrate our muli-sexual attractions, fetishes,
perversion and deviance ... a "Village of Queers" as I call us and
Love us.
So,
Thank you for showing an interest in my sexuality.
Thank you for helping me to explore and express my true self.
My Basis for Relations - at least partly (others may evolve, opening up new areas)
To pursue and interact with "Relations" I am very intersted in reading other peoples' stories about themselves, including potentially taboo topics, and likewise to discuss my own, and to answer questions about myself and my sexual prefferences, experiences and personal activity.
To quote a popular poster:
"I Will Answer Any Sex Question No Matter How
Kinky, Naughty Or Revealing."
